What day is it? What Year?

Wow! It has been a REALLY long time since I last posted!

As of late, I have been mulling over the idea that my son really and truly hates me. I mean he says it a few times a day, we have discussed it and I try to talk about other ways of expressing yourself. But what if he really does mean it? What if he really can't stand to be around me? What then? Where do you go in a relationship after that? He can't brake up with me, he can't just announce that he is leaving and going to live with the neighbor (though he has thought through a few of these options in times of anger). So, today as I was mowing the lawn, I came to terms with this possibility and decided that it is just the way it is, and I can still enjoy him, selfishly. I mean who is stopping me? Only me and my petty desire to be liked!

Well, no more, I say! I will watch him, hug him, kiss him, and tell him I love him, even AND especially when he is mad at me. I will still distance myself from the physical damage, but otherwise, he will just have to deal with being loved by someone he can't stand. Knowing how handsome, intelligent, and extremely picky he is, I am sure this will be the first of many times.

Good Night, I am off to snuggle with me kids!